When I was writing part three of the hair chronicles I went back into the time warp of old Youtube videos I posted looking for a specific hair product (that I still can’t find grrrr) and I felt like that past me would be so disappointed in present me with what I did in everything. How I let my dreams go and “grew up” So…
Dear Past Lara,
I’m sorry I failed you, a lot happened in life that changed the way you will feel and view yourself. You will let it control you and prevent you from moving forward. I can’t tell you what you should do because The Doctor isn’t around to help, but I will promise you this. I will continue our dream because its a dream I feel every day when I’m staring at a computer at work getting yelled at by customers. I feel it every time I put on my make up and remember the joy it gives me because I let my creative side shine through. I am so sorry Lara for failing you I cannot apologise enough because its something I cannot take back. But I promise you starting today things are changing, and that is because of you. Watching you made me realise the small joys of life, the small feelings of beginning to explore makeup and the ability to be myself even if its because I am alone in my room playing with an editing software with no idea what to do. I promise to Carpe the fucking diem out of life. I promise to be the girl you wanted to be, not just for you but for me. Thank you for reinspiring me I won’t let you down.
Molto Amore
Present Lara
It’s strange how your past can reignite your desire and dreams for your future. It baffles me how our original dreams can be pushed aside and nearly forgotten about.
Until Next Time Ciao!
P.S Future Lara I hope you’re proud and happy.
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